Twelve
There were
still a couple weeks to go until E and mine’s officially scheduled second date
when she called
and complained about the guy she was seeing from Long Beach. Apparently, he
had been flying
up on the weekends and driving E crazy with his predictability. She said all he
wanted to do
was smoke pot and stay in and watch TV. E asked if I would consider joining
them
at her place
for the weekend pretending to be her brother in order to relieve her boredom. I
could
stay in her
Mom’s room since she was out of town, and I could help myself to all the food I
wanted. I
didn’t even have to think about it and asked her what time she wanted me there.
She
was surprised,
thanking me over and over saying she didn’t know anyone else she could ask for
help. The real
selling point was the food. It had been a very long time since I had
experienced
the joy that
comes from the unlimited access to a suburban refrigerator. Visions of cold cut
sandwiches, big
glasses of milk poured from gallon jugs and packages of fig bars zapped across
the wires of my
brain while E outlined her plan.
I would
take the train down to her and call from the bar where we thumb wrestled after
work
on Friday
saying that I was her brother in town for the weekend on a surprise visit. My
name
would be Jim
and she would come get me at the bar telling Mr. Long Beach that she was going
to the airport.
Then I would spend the rest of the weekend with my best sister and the current
apple of her
eye.
E made me
promise several times before I hung up the telephone that I would actually
follow
through and
show. I assured her that I was a man of
my word and that if I said I was going to do
something that
meant I would do it, but she still had me swear on everything from my not yet
dead mothers
grave to the very man in the moon that I would really show. The last thing she
said before
goodbye was that we would have fun. I did not doubt that in the least. I hung
up the
phone and
stared at the rug on the floor of my room for a long-time marveling at how
things
could change so
fast.
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I took my
bag packed for the weekend to work with me and walked to the train station
after
quitting time.
It was under construction and there was plywood and chain link fencing
everywhere
separating the depot from the boarding area. I walked past the two porta johns
at the
front and up a
narrow wooden plank that led to a solitary ticket window. There were several
Brown people in
line in front of me and I waited my turn. I bought my ticket and the young
Black woman
working the booth poked a corner of it with an ordinary hole punch. There was a
small stand
selling flowers, candy, and soda, and I thought about buying my sister that I
really
don’t have
flowers, but I didn’t feel like carrying them with me. I made my way through
the
plywood and
chain link fencing maze and joined the many people waiting on the train. There
weren’t any
benches or seats. I sat down on the plywood flooring and leaned back against
the
chain-link
fence. The fence gave quite a bit. I was almost in the position that you would
find
yourself if you
were kicked back in a recliner in your living room watching Monday Night
Football. There
was absolutely no way to look cool in this position. I smiled and leaned
forward,
removing my
phone and earpiece from my travel bag. I listened to music and saw a couple of
motherly types
looking at me.
Finally,
the porter pushed aside the gate that lead to the train platform and we all
made our
way through the
chute into the cars of the train. I stepped into the closest door and made my
way
up to the
second level. I had never been on a train before that I could remember. I guess
my
mom and dad
took me on a train to Chicago before my other brothers were on the scene, but
that
would have made
me a baby and I don’t remember anything about being a baby. In fact, my first
memory is from
when I was about two. I remember falling into a deep drainage ditch by my
house on my
tricycle.
We pulled
out of the station and made our way south stopping every few minutes to let
people
on. The scenery
wasn’t anything to really look at, mostly pictures of urban decay. The yards of
industry with
big brown rusted barrels and piles of garbage. The backs of the projects with
great
graffiti
covering every possible inch of the cement wall separating the living areas
from the
hillside
leading down to the tracks.
After about
twenty minutes we passed the horse track and the mall, and I got off. I walked
past a couple
of new car dealerships into the quaint old town area and looked in the little
shop
windows and
made my way to the bar to call Sis. It was barely six o’clock in the evening and
every one of
those cutesy places was closed. So much for the working people. I guess the
only
people that
shopped there were housewives and retirees.
I got to
the bar and set my bag on a chair. The place was pretty dead. I got a beer,
left a dollar
tip and called
E. I got her voicemail. I hung up without leaving a message, thinking horrible
things as I sat
and sipped my beer. Mercifully the bar was playing a decent song. I took this
as a
good omen and
tried calling again. This time Sis answered.
She put on a good front asking me
what I was
doing in town and how long I planned on staying. I told her I didn’t know and
to
hurry up and
come get me.
After a
couple songs E came into the bar in a flurry of excitement. She sat down next
to me
very, very,
close and looked at me for what seemed like a long time before she reinformed
me
that I was her
next to youngest brother Jim. I hadn’t been home for about six months and my
visit was quite
a pleasant surprise. She pressed her knees firmly against mine and I leaned
forward and
stole a long slow kiss. She sighed and told me that was all I was going to be
getting
this weekend
and I reminded her about the baths we used to take together when we were kids.
She didn’t say
anything and just smiled and took my hand and led me away from the table. I
grabbed my
overnight bag and followed her to the car.
When we got
to home sweet home, E had me put my bag in mom’s room and had me follow
her upstairs to
meet Mr. Long Beach.
Mr. Long
Beach turned out to be a pretty nice guy and I actually liked him. We shook
hands
and he said
hello Jim and asked about my short visit home. E answered for me. She said that
was just the
kind of guy I was. I loved surprises.
Mr. Long
Beach asked me if I wanted to get high and I said no thanks. He packed a bowl
and
took a hit. He
told me he stops by to see E on his way back from Mendicino. A friend of his is
a
grower and he
helps him harvest and gets paid with a nice personal supply.
E refrained
from smoking which was wise because I was sure that she had the personality
type that would
not mix well with weed. I think she may have had some kind of psychotic
episode if she
had indulged.
I could see
why E liked Mr. Long Beach. He was a good-looking guy even if it appeared that
he didn’t
realize it. He showed me a picture of himself when he and she met, and he had
quite a
lion’s mane of
hair that ran all the way down the middle of his back. But in person his hair
was
cut nice and
neat. He said it was a pain to take care of and he just wanted a change.
We all sat in
E’s room and talked and watched some show that had car chases and gunfire for
about an hour
and then decided to go have dinner.
We took
Mom’s car and E drove. I was a big SUV. That baby could really go. She stomped
on the
accelerator a few times on side streets that had the traffic flow that allowed
her to get the
thing up to
about eighty.
Dinner was
at a Thai restaurant that had a family run feeling to it and surprisingly
enough the
food was quite
good. You get kind of spoiled eating out in the city where most everything is
excellent. I’ve
been amazed at what the locals in the outlying areas consider fine dining when
I’m out with
them. For the most part it amounts to okay prepared grub in some chain-like
place
that you see in
commercials on television.
E would
feed Mr. Long Beach portions of his dinner and at the same time run her foot up
my
leg. It felt so
good I thought I would pass out. When I needed to use the restroom, I got up
and
went through
the kitchen. On my way back I saw the cook watching some TV show in what I
guess was his
language that had topless women. I stopped and watched with him for a couple of
minutes then
made my way back to the table and told Mr. Long Beach about my findings. I
could tell he
wanted to get up and check out the program, but E wouldn’t let him saying that
he
should behave.
She smacked me on the hand hard enough for it to turn red, but I hardly felt it
because she was
smiling at looking so intensely at me that I felt kind of dizzy. Mr. Long Beach
made some sort
of joking comment about the joys of sisterly love which E and I both let pass.
After
dinner we went to a bar. E and Mr. Long Beach sat with some Brown people that
she
knew, and I sat
at the bar and played the video blackjack game. I did okay winning many hands
in a row, but
there wasn’t a payoff of any kind. I guess the payoff was you got to keep playing.
That really was
only mildly satisfying. It was more like a moral victory. And that’s a hollow
kind of victory
when it comes to playing cards.
I struck up
a conversation with a big White guy wearing glasses who was sitting next to me
and he told me
of a local gambling house in town. Apparently, he had been there the previous
week and won a
couple hundred dollars playing poker. He said it was the modest looking cream
colored house
next door to the hardware store. I thanked him for the information, and we
talked
some more about
this and that, mostly about sports and after our conversation had exhausted
itself we both
focused our attention on the band. The band was a pretty good non-descript
outfit
that played a
lot of songs by the world’s greatest rock and roll band which pleased me
immensely. When
they played their famous song about the devil I got up and danced and was
joined by E.
Mr. Long Beach took my seat and watched us. E and I kept our distance, but we
still grinded
away pretty good.
The song
ended and I sat down next to Mr. Long Beach. E still wanted to dance so she
partnered with
this guy who seemed to be somewhat mentally handicapped. He was dressed
poorly and
jerked spastically to the music, and it was obvious that he made the other
people
uncomfortable.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but mentally handicapped people don’t
bother me. In fact,
they comfort me in some strange way. I’ll be standing on a bus wedged
between this
person and that person and if one of them happens to be mentally off I feel at
ease
with them.
Sometimes I’ll see a person with Downs Syndrome with their big faces and slow-
moving ways step up onto the bus and take a seat and I
feel almost parental towards them. I
thought it was
quite cool of E to dance with that guy and I told her so when she joined us at
the
bar.
Mr. Long
Beach had gotten into the video blackjack, and I had gotten into the bartender.
She
was a blonde,
White woman with big hips and I told E if she was a good sister she would
introduce me to
her. She frowned and reluctantly did so and I spent the rest of the evening
there
sitting at the
bar and chatting with the bartender when I could. I knew she probably got hit
on all
the time and I
was very conscious of the fact that she was working, but her hips looked so
curvy
and wonderful I
couldn’t totally let her be.
Eventually
E tired of the place and we left to hit the liquor store before it closed. We
parked
in the hardware
store lot and as we walked to the liquor store, I looked around for the cream-
colored gambling house. I think I found the place. It
had several cars parked in front and the
lights were on
in contrast to the neighbors who were obviously in for the evening.
E and Mr.
Long Beach each picked out a bottle of wine. As we headed back to the SUV Mr.
Long Beach had
to go to the bathroom very badly. We walked to the park in the town’s square
and he scurried
off into the bushes and E and I sat on a park bench. I scooted close to her,
and
she scooted
away stopping at the end of the bench. She couldn’t scoot any further without
actually
falling off the bench. I moved right next to her, and she asked me if I
remembered mom
bringing us to
play at this park. I told her of course I did, and she put her hand on my knee
and
ran it lightly
up my thigh. We heard Mr. Long Beach stepping from the bushes and stood up.
She held his
hand and swung it back and forth like a child on a swing trying to go higher
and
higher.
Back home E
and Mr. Long Beach went upstairs, and I went into moms’ room to watch some
TV. I couldn’t
find the light switch for anything in the world, so I groped to find the
television. I
turned it on,
and it gave enough light to allow me to make my way around the room. I noticed
a
picture of who
I assumed was mom just off to the right of the closet. It was a black and white
photo and in it
she was wearing only a negligee. She was lounging on the very bed I was on and
even though she
was older she looked fantastic.
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